Day 18 - the 'elder' sister

i would prefer an ugly son and a beautiful daughter rather than a handsome son and a not-too-pretty daughter. because i know one thing from my life, that your awfully handsome brother will keep making you realize how ordinary you are to look at but a sister would just never do this. Maybe it's in the man's ugly nature. 


in future i will never be 'the elder sister' just sister. that's it. no matter what happens, my status; due to my own attitude or their's or in our upbringing or sth i will never enjoy what all the eldest siblings of this world enjoy. My brother and sister never fail to tell me what i really am. a useless mind-rotten skunk who is only in this world to bug the hell out of the other people. And they are to a great extent right. 


i always try shutting up all together, once and for all. but me and my stupid stupid nature i end up being what i previously was. 

Day 14 - Dear world

Dear world, 
i do not hate you but your residents. why do they have to be such control freaks; dictating how everyone's every situation should be like? enlightening you with their worthy suggestions when legends have it, that they actually do not matter. 
People are so judgmental (even if this line is pretty judgmental on my part) and moreover they wouldn't listen to you about what happened with you but to the other people who merely saw that happening that have a lot of spice to bring down their appetite of the juiciest gossip. The gossip doesn't need to be true, it just has to have something that ruins the image of the prey and gives them people more stuff to chew on. 
Enough.
On a side note. i realized my brother is a genius! he so epicly observed the current situation in the house and came up with a wonderful piece of poetry i couldn't have imagined of writing in my whole freaking life. he is definitely a potential poet. But how to bring this up to the world? me thinks i should start a blog which includes his poems only.