Day 24 - Again

just felt like sharing it again..
Day 18 - the 'elder' sister
i would prefer an ugly son and a beautiful daughter rather than a handsome son and a not-too-pretty daughter. because i know one thing from my life, that your awfully handsome brother will keep making you realize how ordinary you are to look at but a sister would just never do this. Maybe it's in the man's ugly nature. 

in future i will never be 'the elder sister' just sister. that's it. no matter what happens, my status; due to my own attitude or their's or in our upbringing or sth i will never enjoy what all the eldest siblings of this world enjoy. My brother and sister never fail to tell me what i really am. a useless mind-rotten skunk who is only in this world to bug the hell out of the other people. And they are to a great extent right. 

i always try shutting up all together, once and for all. but me and my stupid stupid nature i end up being what i previously was. 

Day 23 - EXAMS!!

exams. exams. exams. and starting from today i just have exactly 14 days to prepare. okay. *gets shit scared* 

Day 22 - I don't want to be happy!

i do NOT want to be happy! i want euphoria! :D

so exams are just a fortnight away. and i have thoroughly wasted 3 whole days! awesomeness, no?  three days i did nothing except for play and sleep. and now every part of my body aches but this break from studies was much needed by my body. and it came at the right time. spot on.

my friend is going through depression these days. the same effed up situation that i am going through for like months and the thing is i do understand it but i don't know how to help her out because i still haven't got out of the situation myself yet. :/